ahh, isn’t it amazing how you can make things go your way when you know how the system works? well, i recently found this out again. yes, it is time again to look at the life of a womanless man and his toys. Continue reading “using the system - the trio” …

you know, as a single guy living alone in a house, you get a lot of time to think on your own. no wife to answer to, no girlfriend to sway your thoughts, a disobedient dog to frustrate you more. Yep, nothing but a massive TV, a room full of 20 computers, constant music throughout the house making you feel like your life really does have background music (except when in your car, because your amps are currently all jacked up). this, my friend, makes up the perfect combination for all sorts of thought provoking questions and amusements.

with all that said, have any of you found that putting thoughts on paper are more difficult knowing that friends and family are looking on? you watch what you say, you phrase things a little different than you typically would, you don’t delve too deep into many issues at all. this is all good as most of them most likely wouldn’t care to read all the garbage that falls out of your head onto a computer screen anyway, but it makes you think nonetheless.

does any of this mean that i have some things to say that i am not willing to write about out of fear that others would read it? no, but those others are not just others. they are people that have an opinion in my own personal life in a way that no stranger would. this of course makes things that come out a little more toned down. sure, there are thoughts that linger in my head for what seem like an eternity, but that tends to be fine by me.

why would it be easier to write on a blog to a lot of people that you don’t know? simple…judgement, or i guess, lack thereof. sure, even in this case, people would judge, but who cares? they don’t know you and you don’t know them. what’s the big deal? friends and family on the other hand are the ones that matter in these situations, but you simply would rather not put that kind of stuff out there for them to become participants in.

i guess that everyone has things on their minds that they feel would be better staying there, but once more, for a single guy living on his own, private time tends to allow the mind to process the activities of the day, the activities that have yet to come about, and anything and everything in between a bit more. however, i’m not going to lie, i love this. having been an introvert all my life, i tend to enjoy a private time much more than the next guy. to sit aside and just contemplate the “what if” questions that just so happen to wander into the open mind as you sit there, in a daze, staring at a screen that has no right in being as big as it is. oh well, life moves on. another day passes. another week, month, and year are yet to come.

when will it end? not anytime soon, but of that i am fine. a long life, lots of thoughts, constant music making your life a little bit more like that movie you love so much. step back, take a breath, and slowly move ahead.

I meant to write this in my last short post that pretty much told you nothing.

today is my brother’s birthday, so all that know him, wish him a good one.

happy birthday josh!

“IF YOU COULD ONLY SEE”

If you could only see the way she loves me Then maybe you would understand Why I feel this way about our love And what I must do If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says When she says she loves me

Well you got your reasons And you got your lies And you got your manipulations They cut me down to size

Sayin’ you love but you don’t You give your love but you won’t

If you could only see the way she loves me Then maybe you would understand Why I feel this way about our love And what I must do If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says When she says she loves me

Seems the road less traveled Show’s happiness unraveled And you got to take a little dirt To keep what you love That’s what you gotta do

Sayin’ you love but you don’t You give your love but you won’t You’re stretching out your arms to something that’s just not there Sayin’ you love where you stand Give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loves me Then maybe you would understand Why I feel this way about our love And what I must do If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says When she says she loves me

Sayin’ you love but you don’t You give your love but you won’t Sayin’ you love where you stand Give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loves me Then maybe you would understand Why I feel this way about or love And what I must do If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says When she says she loves me

-tonic-

It’s been awhile, I know. Life has been busy through the Holidays, but I will write something soon. To my faithful 2-3 reader’s, I am still alive. That is it for now. Back to work.

it has now been several weekends back, but i grabbed some photos of the event from barry’s flickr site. click the image to the side to see all of them.

i have no plan on going into too much detail on this post as since the event has gotten older, the interest in writing this has kind of died. the only reason i never wrote anything prior to tonight is that i have been extremely busy with work and haven’t felt like doing much when i have come home in the evenings.

the camping took place in rocky springs, ms; a place i knew nothing about prior to going there, but apparently, rocky springs is a real ghost town. not a ghost town in the sense that there have been hauntings, but a ghost town in the sense that the town is no longer populated due to weather conditions, bad crops, and disease back in the late 1800’s. we went down on a friday just for the night, planning to come back the following day. we had 2 massive tents that turned out to be too much for the amount of people who decided to stay. some simply didn’t want to put up with 30 degree weather. oh well, their loss. to speed things along. we hiked to an old church, that is still used today, through the woods in the middle of the night. we had some fun trying to frighten the people that stayed when we returned. we ate, slept, and woke. park ranger bugged us around 9am, and we returned around 1pm to civilization (not that we were far from it anyway).

well, there you have it. somewhat short and to the point.

Evening at Adler http://www.drunkenblog.com/drunkenblog-archives/000713.html

October 21, 2005 marked the day of the drunkenbatman hosted event, evening at adler.

i have linked to the drunkenblog in the past on several occasions, and as i have mentioned before, this site is for geeks and people interested in the inner depths of the mac community, so this suggestion is out there for anyone interested in what some of the top indie mac developers out there have to say about various topics.

evening at adler was an event that was hosted by db, but was basically a discussion on anything and everything mac related at the adler planetarium in chicago, il. i guess it is best described by db himself in the following text: On October 21st in the year of ‘05, ten top Mac developers (primarily indies) from around the USA were invited to the Adler Planetarium in Chicago, IL for an evening of conversation around a broad range of topics: Making a living writing for the Mac, software patents, competing with Apple, digital rights management (DRM), software activation, bugs, Ajax, unit testing, building communities, the x86 transition, and much much more… This was recorded, and the video and audio are now online.

there may be very few of my already few readers that would be interested and willing to watch or listen to the discussion that took place, but if you are, i highly recommend it. be forewarned, the video is about 2.5 hours long, so think of steve jobs’ keynote speeches times 3. check it out. EAA